I think that aptly describes how most people are feeling after reading the second List from the NV comp. I will admit that I had my fingers crossed that the editors saw something in my writing - enough to warrant a "please can we see more", a "please can we see something different" or even "please can you fill in for a temp in the typing pool". Alas my name failed to appear. But what surprised me the most (and yes I probably should have learnt from the first List) was that names I was positive would be on the second list - weren't. In fact I didn't recognise any of the names on the second list (not that I'm saying that I know that many people) but given the quality of some of the entries from people I do know, I have to say I was a little stunned. And of course disappointed for them.
So my decision to take a break from M&B writing for a wee bit has been reinforced. If I hadn't a newly started chapter for my Single Title to focus on and feel all excited about, I think the disappointment about the NV second List would have been much greater.
I am going to imagine there's a third List, entitled: Writers To Keep An Eye On and that my name is on the top (a lack of hubris? Moi? Never!) and that all my far more deserving and worthy blogfriends and mentors are right there too!
Ego sum a scriptor. Ego mos persevero scribo. Ego ero vulgo.
I am a writer. I will continue to write. I will be published.
Now I'm heading over to the Minxes blog for a pre-breakfast cocktail. Hmmmm now what will I wear......?